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Tuesday, March 27, 2007

*[[ square one ]]*

Managed to find the online version of the comic "300" and it was pretty good. I'm still interested to watch the movie but sadly either I have no time or no buddies to watch with. Oh well. See how la.

I wanted to blog about drumming for God and how certain issues can make things complicated.
But now that I think about it, it really IS too complicated. So complicated I don't know where to start and how to end. I'll try anyway.

When one is serving God through your music and pride creeps in, it can get very messy. That's probably why I stopped 2 years ago and entered the world of (symphonic) band. Also, it can become tiring. There's a loss of motivation to play after some time. Then I'll start wondering why I'm really playing in the church band. For God? To fulfill this duty? Or to become a better musician through increased exposure and practice?

Nevertheless, I'm prepared to try again. Playing for God should be a form of offering, of worship to Him, and our focus should be on Him alone, and not our selfish thoughts of pride. It will be hard. But I believe He will help me focus my attention onto Him instead of on the music. Help me, God.

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chris was reminiscing @ | 3/27/2007 02:01:00 am

~.* innocence *.~

Monday, March 26, 2007

*[[ time to let go ]]*

By the time I reached the band room on Saturday, i was 2 hours late. A JUNIOR came up to me, "Eh. Why so late?" I was pissed. I wished I had stayed in bed. 5 minutes later, 2 other band members came up to me separately asking why I was late. I kept myself from blowing up at them, and calmly shot back at how I wasn't obligated to come in the first place, considering how I was one of the few graduating this year who even bothered to come.

Honestly. My time is over. I'm no longer an NYP student. My admin card has God-knows-when been inactivated and is INVALID, such that I couldn't even enter the block without using my brother's card for entry. As such. Shouldn't you understand that I'm freed from school activities, which by the way, includes BAND? As soon as I had received my crappy but acceptable-for-graduation results, I had a choice. Whether or not I decide to show up or turn up late or stay home and sleep in or spend my precious time on something, it was UP TO ME.

So to my dear percussions (and bandmates), it's not like I have developed skills that the band cannot do without, but on the contrary, I still suck like hell and I'm sure you guys can cope with just one member gone, just as how they (we) did when past members had left. That said, I hope you, my dear percussionists, will remain faithful, to yourselves and to the band. I won't be around to call and text you guys to go for pracs anymore, so please, do yourselves the favour and encourage each other. Set a good example for new batch of year ones so that they too will attend practices regularly. Strive to become better and better, and do our seniors Teo Hui and Iskandar proud.

As for me, I'm not abandoning you. As and when, I'll be around. But when I do decide not to appear, GET USED TO IT. Step up, and dare to play. Get shot by Laoshi, and learn from it. No matter how many times he shoots you, play. I did.

chris was reminiscing @ | 3/26/2007 01:55:00 am

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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

*[[ Welcome to Singapore! ]]*

chris was reminiscing @ | 3/21/2007 11:38:00 pm

*[[ that smile was my highlight of the day ]]*

WOO-HOOO! I PASSED!! well. not that i was worried i'd fail but yeah its good to know u're finally done with studies, at least for 2 years =/ my GPA's not great as i had predicted, but it did increase, also as i had predicted. cos if it didn't, i might not be writing this and instead u'd see me in the orbituary section tml. HAHA KIDDING!

anws today has been pretty much awesome. the same drummer whom laoshi and i had seen perform at a concert last year is joining my section! am i relieved or what! after seeing her play from that concert and from today, i'm confident the section is in safe hands! and to think all this time i was worried how the section was gonna die off once jas and i have enlisted. percussions, BANZAI!

she smiled back at me! what should i do now? ahhhh.. i have got to start talking to her!

chris was reminiscing @ | 3/21/2007 01:43:00 am

~.* innocence *.~

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

*[[ freedom can be so boring. ]]*

as soon as exams were over, the celebrations began. although i screwed up accounts, i didn't care. IT WAS OVER! we went to watch the protege after playing a few rounds of DOTA. all in all it was fun letting loose now that everything's finished. but now that there's no school, no nothing, there's also nth to look forward to. simply put. I'M BORED! until i can get my graphics card, i can't play any good games, other than dota-ing with AI or maybe lvling up in diablo2. well at least there're good shows to watch. PRISON BREAK, LOST, HOUSE and HEROES. and not forgetting the countless anime i'm following. haha.

i need a job. (a 2nd job actually.)

chris was reminiscing @ | 3/07/2007 11:59:00 am

~.* innocence *.~